Family Update

Well my week got worse before it got better, but what matters is now it is better. YEAH! Praise Jesus! I am in better spirits...and Praise the Good Lord I got some rest last night...I spent the night at my moms with the kids and she got up with Creighton (who of course, did much better than she does for me but it didn't matter because i was sleeping either way)! Jackson and Creighton love their grandparents and that is such a blessing!

I had the opportunity to talk to my brother whom I never get to talk to...we talked for like 40 mintues and that was great. It is so weird that he is growing up. He has this serious girlfriend and the thought of him being married in a few years is mind-blowing to me. Weren't we just little like yesterday playing together...oh wait...I have TWO kids of my own and am working on finishing our fourth year of marriage....time flies...it just isn't suppose to happen to my baby brother! I love him and miss him so much. Oddly enough, my sister left me a message a few days ago too...she is even harder to get a hold of than my brother because her life is insane. I love my family!

Jeff has been incredibly busy these past few weeks and will be for another week and a half and then prayerfully will slow down. I hate it when all we get to see of each other is in passing...

UPDATES:

Jackson--

officially in his new room and big boy bed. It is going awesome. He does super well in it and it is actually really great. Today I was nursing Creighton and he was sleepy and so just went in his room and it was really quiet and I had an odd feeling I'd find him in his bed when I went to check on him...there he was binky and blanky in mouth and hand and laying in his bed...ALL BY HIMSELF and without being told. He stays in it too...all because of the FAMOUS "MR. SPOON" oh I love the Chancey's for the idea. It usually only takes a few times for it to work and with the bed it took one night and only 2 spanks and he hasn't gotten out since. That is FAB-U-LOUS!

He is super super sweet to his sister adn loves to play with her and kiss her still. He is excited that she is more active, but I cannot wait to see them actually play play together when she is big enough....they adore each other. We had our first visit to Chucky Cheeses the other day and hopefully our last...it was awful. I think it'd have better if there weren't SERIOUSLY 200 people in there--lets talk nightmare! Here is a pic or two of our outing...

He is starting to do some FUNNY things too...when you tell him to do thumbs up or otherwise known to our "Full House Generation" as COOL DUDE thanks to Michelle, he sticks both of his pointer fingers in teh air and totally thinks he is doing it right...he shows his muscles which I think is amazingly adorable as seen below:

He is talking a little bit more these days, but still not much. He will one day I am sure of it though. I never did take him back to see the doc for his hearing because the test just seemed retarded to me and I think he hears fine. We'll go back after his 2 year appt. if she still insists it is his hearing at that point. He did get all 4 of his cuspid (canine) teeth this week...at the same time poor guy!

He really loves being outside these days now that its nice enough to be. He likes going on bike rides with Daddy and going to the park the best. He is really thinking he is quite big---a lot bigger than he really is. He is fearless and it scares me. But I also love it too...

He is "outgrowing" lots of baby things such as : highchairs, boosters, strollers, etc...he thinks he needs to be like Daddy and not have to be confined...I think not being confined is the big thing though! I can't believe it...its hard to imagine him growing up so fast...21 months...sometimes that seems like forever ago and sometimes that seems like yesterday.

Creighton--

she is a jabber mouth and might just talk before Jackson does and certainly I am assuming she'll talk way before he did in age...she loves attention and smiles alot. She has adorable moments and moments *usually at night* that make me go crazy. She decided that after the one day of eating 3 bowls of rice she doesnt' quite like it anymore. She, I believe is teething and maybe this is why. The last few days she has been a bit more fussy than normal and drooling like a madman. She desperately wants to sit up--DESPERATELY--and she is pretty close to being able to sit up with only a little help. She is funny. She is stubborn and hardheaded and definitely lets you know how she feels--whether happy or sad.

She really is a happy baby...do they get much cuter...I think not!
Same towel...different kid...Jackson was much chunkier :) And Creighton has some amazing skin if I do say so myself. They are about the same age in these pics...isn't that crazy (Jackson is a bit younger)

Jeff--

still working on masters and still doing a great job. HOpefully will be finished with the majority of it a week from tomorrow. He has 3 or 4 more books to read and several papers to write before next Sunday night and then after that I think he has just a few assignments left and it is completed!!! His asst. comes May 14th and I am super pumped about her arrival not only for her help for him, but because she is a good friend!

Jeff had an interview on the new (FOX23) this week that was fun! He was on for like 2 minutes but it was good. They had the 30 Hour Famine this weekend and I think he is glad the event is over with but said it went relatively well. He has another huge event Sunday--True Love Waits--about abstaining from sex. Hopefully they will have a good turnout...you never know with those things though!

Jeff loves to play hard with the kids but he also really likes to read with Jackson in his new bed. Although playing hard will be on somewhat of a raincheck since he is in a hard cast for the next 4 weeks, adn then get a walking boot for 2 weeks after that...poor daddy

Me--

I am trying to be on top of things and usually that doesn't happen. My house is typically picked up but not ever clean, but I am okay with that. I love to laugh and giggle and play with my kids. Creighton and I do our fair share of "talking" and smiling and cooing at each other...here is a pic from when were interrupted from doing so:

I have also decided that I am a blogging-addict...I love to read blogs and write blogs and its crazy how "connected" I feel to some people I don't know AT ALL in life, but only through words on a computer screen. I feel odd about it but yet, I am okay with it. I laugh and cry with people and about people and for people and I think that is a good thing. It makes me happy. Other things that make me happy: mail, packages, massages, good food, family, friends, laughter...and the list goes on...I am thankful for good things...I am thankful that I am so blessed. I am thankful for the hard times in life that are followed by God's showering of blessings and hope...faith and love. God is good...so good...

Who prayed for patience?

Hey there...wanting desperately to know who prayed for patience for me...because it wasn't me...I know what happens when that pray stumbles across my lips...and I didn't ever want that again, so I know not to do that...so fess up..who did it? These past few days have been wearing and tiring and trying and oh my goodness....Lord, I want to learn this lesson quickly so I don't have to have these tests and trials again. I began to think I was on the up and up of it all and as we were headed to church tonight (it took me a LONG time to get everyone in the car and dinner packed) I breathed a sigh of relief once we rolled into the parking lot...then Jackson began puking everywhere....everywhere....everywhere...all over himself and I am holding Creighton and the diaper bag and dinner and his hand and it was awful. I stripped him down outside and he has puke everywhere and snot everywhere and I left Creighton outside (but safe) and dodged inside to the restroom where onlookers were gawking at me and my naked (with diaper) and disgusting son....got him cleaned off (thansk to help from some sweet friends and people--thanks Brittany, Kara, Jeff, and Bill) and then got right back in the car and came back home wondering what on earth I had done to cause someone to continue their prayer for patience for me when all I want my prayer to be is for rest and some more rest.
I will post more later about my past days soon--maybe. With a sick baby boy and a screaming baby girl (who DOES NOT KNOW HOW TO SLEEP AT ALL) and a snoring husband that doesn't have a second of spare time for the next 3 weeks I might be awhile...they are both resting at the moment nad Jeff is at church. My stomach is beginning to hurt..but I doubt I'll get sick, I think I am jsut so tired I can't see straight and I havne't eaten all day...I should go do that.

I am thankful, however, that he somehow waited until his feet were on concrete and not in the car to begin the escapade...:)

I'm alive still

I haven't blogged in what feels like an eternity. It is the craziest thing too because I was with only one kid for the whole week and I got NOTHING accomplished...as in I was so lazy during the day and I stayed up really late most every night and now I am so tired I can't see straight. I am sorta upset with myself for doing that too because there was so much that needed to be done and now I am really behind. Oh well. Creighton and I had some really great time just the two of us because Jeff was really busy this week and so it was just the two of us at home mostly. The first two days I was bored out of my mind and going a bit crazy with the quietness without Jackson, but then I decided it was nice and we enjoyed the quietness a lot...now I miss that a bit...haha. I am so strange...I don't like change at all but I seem to adapt to it really quickly and then don't like to change back---Jeff says I am the weirdest person he's met in some areas of life and this is one of them.

Jackson spent the week with Grammy Terrie and Pop and as is the case with any of his grandparents, he returns quite spoiled. We are currently in "detox" from sugar and severe spoiling. Its hard. He is the funniest guy though. He cracks me up about 60% of the day, is the most loving kid about 20% and the other 20% I think I might strangle him...oh to be a toddler with as much energy as he has...He's a bit on the crazy side of life. He got his hair cut while he was gone and he looks rather adorable to me! I love it...it is shorter than we normally get it cut, but I really like it. I think we'll have to start keeping it short. He isn't really talking any more than he was, but he says "NO!" all the time right now...to EVERYTHING....he was saying the cutest drawn out "unhuh" to everything and now it is a bratty sounding No! I will be anxious to hear more words though because I love his sweet voice.

Creighton is rolling over constantly from front to back and back to front both ways each way and she LOVES looking in the mirror. She is quite funny about mirrors...they make her SO happy. There are 3 things that make her the most happy I think (besides milk) 1) Mirrors 2) Hair dryers 3) Sole attention on Creighton. She could be screaming bloodmurder and if I turn on the hair dyer she is happy within seconds adn will be content till it goes off. The other thing is just attention..she loves to talk and babble all day long but she wants you to hear her and see her. SHe loves eye contact and is so cute and happy when she has your fully devoted attention...and it makes me smile to see her smile...so we stare at each other and talk to each other A LOT! She is such a sweet baby. I didn't know I coul dlove another human as much as I love Jackson (of course I love JEff too, but that is a different love even than with a child) but I do...my heart has expanded. It is great.

I have many more things to say but I won't bog down this blog with them all. I will try to get back on tomorrow, but I have lots of things I have to get done too, so we'll see. I realized that I hadn't been writing my thankfuls the past few posts...funny that Maria remembered too just recently on her blog! So, I am very thankful for my husband who is so sweet to me adn would do anything in the world to make me happy. He is truly so great and wonderful and I don't deserve him at all!

21 baseball explaination & Creighton eating cereal

okay, well the pics below are a few of the ones from one of the few photoshoots...but i wanted to explain...

21 was my college and high school number for volleyball and so anytime i see it on a shirt or outfit, of course I get excited and buy it. they were both purchased for jackson when i was still pregnant with him. he wore the one creighton is wearing when he was little and now is just fitting into the bigger one. Anyway, I don't particularly care for baseball per say, but I had to buy the outfits because of the number...just for clarification purposes :)I will post a pic of him in the little one here:

Funny, now that I see him here it is crazy how much bigger he was than she is....I think he is about 2.5 months here or so and she is 4.5 in the pic below. However, Creighton began eating cereal this week...I will post her first picture here of cereal and then her picture from tonight when she ate THREE bowls of cereal...she would have eaten more if I had fed it to her....she loved it tonight for the first time really...but the first time she was introduced, she didn't really care for it....but maybe she'll catch up to the way Jackson was as a little guy now :)

Sunday: first time eating cereal

Tonight: loving cereal...3rd bowl....and yes, a lot seems to have gotten ON her instead of IN her, but trust me, she ate A LOT!

Photo Shoots with Ebby

Jackson really LOVES to show off his muscles...this is what he looks like when he does it...usually he'll do it on command at any time unless he's being shy....

We've had a very busy week...Daddy was gone all week and the kids were keeping busy and exhausted, but really it was a great week. I had fun with them and they were well behaved for the most part. I also had some great help. It was nice because Grandma Debbie came to help in the middle of the week and brought her good camera. We had a few photo shoots with the kids and I will post pics either today or tomorrow. It was lots of fun. Creighton is pretty photogenic and Jackson can be if he is in the mood....or bribery...that works too. He decided he really liked the spray bottle and would smile if I squirted water his direction right before Debbie snapped the shot. It was funny!

Jackson is beginning to talk a little bit...slowly we are making progress. He calls my mom Nah-nah (for Donna we think) and he says Ebby (for Debbie)....funny too because supposedly he said Grammie to Terrie...but I don't think so. I just hope he learns to say Grammy and Grandma soon so he can stop calling his grandmothers by their first names. :) but obviously they were just excited to finally have him call them something other than mom--which he still says to everyone 9 times out of 10 if not more.

Creighton is rolling over all the time front to back and back to front. She is super duper cute and is so sweet but is still refusing to sleep for me. She likes to use me as her pacificer ALL NIGHT! I haven't decided yet what I want to do because I am feeling too lazy to fix the problem right now but this week would be good because Jackson is going to be gone all week and I could let her cry without having to wake him up every night. So I should...but I know that it means a heckish week of sleep for me if I do that, but in teh long run I'd get more...so I probably will "train" her this week...wish me luck.

Well I didn't post as many as I'd like...all of those are from one of the sessions...we'll post the others later.

Birthday Party, Old Friends and Life

Sorry for the delay in writing for several days. I was gone for a few and then haven't been able to get to the computer with enough time or hands since then. We have had a busy last few days. This weekend Jeff and I went to a Debate Dinner for a classical education school (which happens to also be a christian school) in town and I was quite impressed. I'd really really like to send my kids there once they are of age because of the quality education they'd get. I don't think I'd like to send them there once they are older for social and athletic reasons, but it would make them really advanced or atleast hopefully to excel academically (set the stage for success in their future if they want it). Anyway...my mom kept the kids for me Saturday night (because of the dinner thing) and then thru Sunday since we had small group and a shower to be at. They do so well at her house for her...they just love her and that is such a blessing to have them so close to be able to leave them with them.

On Saturday before the dinner though the kids were with us and we went to a birthday party for a friend--she turned 2. It was fun. Jackson was well behaved for the most part and that was really great. He was quite confused/upset that he couldn't play with her new potato head man set though...it was cute. They had cake and ice cream and he had a portion that was WAY TOO Much for him, but it is what they handed him and I never thought he'd eat it all...but he did. It was funny until he had the WORST diaper ever that leaked all over his pants and was RANK! I think it was too much for his little system...opps. Oh well...Creighton was good too and was happy because she got lots of attention from mommies and other babies that were there all wanting to hold her...

We also had one of our old friends come over when they were in town this weekend too. When Jackson and Jonah were little (they are only 15 days apart) they played together (or atleast at the same place and time if not necessarily together) all the time! It was fun to see old friends and watch our "little" big boys play again. They were pretty cute and got a long great.

Tonight Jackson told me he had to poop. It was so funny... He came to get me from the table while he had been playing in his room and I saw that he had already gone so I changed him and left him in his room to continue playing and praised him and stuff for telling me he had dirtied his diaper...but not 4 minutes later he was back in the kitchen and I smelled a horrid smell...and was like did that diaper just reak or did you go again...and he had gone again! I think he wanted to use the potty or atleast it was a start that he was noticing when he needed to go and was telling me...I am not in the least bit of a hurry to get him potty trained though...diapers work for now and I am not wanting to have to deal with public restrooms and accidents yet. But I thought it was funny and a great start for him.

Creighton went for her 4 month check up today and weighed in just under 14 pounds and was almost 26 inches long...she is in the 90th percentile in height but like 50th for weight....skinny girl. Doc said she was looking great and thankfully her ears are much better and she's healthy. She is rolling over both directions now too! Yeah her. She is so strong too. The other day Jeff was holding her on the floor resting in his arms and she SAT UP...she's not suppose to do that yet...but oh well. She can't stay up or for long without folding over in half, but she's funny because she wants to SO bad.



Jeff is out of town this week for the last crazy master's week...he is doing so well though! I am so proud of him.

Pictures & Stories

Today I wanted to post some pictures...well I have wanted to for a long time, but finally got around to doing it because Jeff got the pictures from the camera onto the computer last night...there were over 200...I knew I had taken more recent ones...:)



Anyway, Jax is at school today and I had a lot of laundry to do amongst other things and so this post has been a work-in-progress throughout the day. Especially since it takes a few minutes to download pictures, and as you'll soon see, I did a few too many...well maybe for you...but I am glad...and you get to see my sweet babies!



Creighton has been unusually grumpy today and not wanted me to put her down ever...so this is taking much longer than anticipated. Oh well. Laundry is being done in the meantime.



These first three pics were from Monday night while Jeff was at bible study. Jackson started out half-dressed from his late nap that we woke him up from...lets just say that was a horrid mistake adn we should have just let him sleep. But here are a few of my favorites from that evening! THis is the little couch I am always referring to that sweet big brother acts happen on. I love the way she is looking at him!



THe above pic is when he thought he needed his Robeez on for what I don't know...still no pants...and then ....thisHe for some reason thought he needed his ridiculous HOT winter hat on (we never went outside) but he was content in it adn his RObeez on the couch. Creighton is saying---um, Mom, do you see him...what is he doing? :)



This next pic is Jackson playing the wii with one of our small group girls that came over to hang out on Friday night. HE is so funny boxing. He beat her...

This picture is for Maria....Creighton has the BIGGEST pouty lip I have ever seen, and for now its kinda cute...I captured it a little later than I wanted, but this gives you an idea...so sad...:)

This is Creighton relaxing on the boppy...she hates hats, but I managed to get her not to cry atleast for this pic

sorry that this picture is sideways, I was hiding in the hallway and they didn't know I was taking it and I forgot to flip it first, but I thought it was priceless...that is one of Jackson's most favorite books...My big animal book.

Here is Jackson giving Creighton her bottle. This happened while I was gone and Jeff snapped this. He is so sweet to her. Always wanting her to be happy. Ilove it!

I just liked this one...she looks so old or something...and already she's like "Mom, enough..."

I LOVE THIS PICTURE! They are so precious to me. That is how both of my babies kiss...wide open mouths.

Here is the arm around her....too bad it isn't a better pic of them, but oh well, you get the point.

My sweet Rae Rae smiles I love

They love to "play" and stare at each other. Wherever she is, he wants to be...

Jeff snapped this, and even though he is dirty and has snot running down is nose I just love this picture. He is my little guy and is growing up...he loves to play outside.

Well I am done for now....I enjoyed this post! Hope you did too. ITs 3 and Jax will be home soon...gotta go.

Jackson

Jackson is the sweetest big brother ever. It is so awesome (and such a blessing) to watch him with Creighton. Yesterday I was using the restroom and he of course was in there with me and she was out in the living room crying...so I told him to go make sure she was okay and when I came out he was so sweetly and gently rubbing her back while he bent over her. Then later that evening they were sitting on the little couch together and he saw her binky and sweetly put it in her mouth. Then today he was ready to leave so we could go to the park and he took her binky out of her seat, and opened up the straps for me so I could put her in it. He is just getting so big and I love it...but at the same time...oh my goodness!
We had our first neighborhood girl come over the other day to do sidewalk chalk with us because we were outside....then today we were playing outside again (the weather is gorgeous!) and she came over for a few minutes but then had to leave, but came over and rang the doorbell to see if Jackson could play...it has begun! So fun...
I am so thankful for my handsome BIG boy and for the sunshine today!

I am also thankful I got to go to bible study and I wasn't too terribly late either!

Cell Phone

My mother-in-law forwarded this to me....I liked it. I hadn't seen it before, but maybe you have...either way I liked it and wanted to share it.

Food for thought….

Wonder what would happen if we treated our Bible like we treat our cell phone?
What if we carried it around in our purses or pockets?
What if we flipped through it several time a day?
What if we turned back to go get it if we forgot it?
What if we used it to receive messages from the text?
What if we treated it like we couldn't live without it?
What if we gave it to Kids believing it would keep them safe?
What if we depended on it to remind us of an important message?
What if we used it to communicate with friends?
What if we turned to it to keep up our relationships?
What if we used it when we traveled?
What if we kept it close in case of emergency?
This is something to make you go..hmm. where is my Bible?
... when you enter a meeting you don't even want to turn it off.

Oh, and one more thing. Unlike our cell phone, we don't have to worry about using all our minutes or our Bible being disconnected because Jesus already paid the bill.
Makes you stop and think "where are my priorities?

And no dropped calls

My babies

The funny thing is that I am starting to notice more details about the kids and how incredibly different they are.
Creighton is talking constantly-- babbling of course, but I swear she can say mama and dada already...maybe because we drill words into Jackson all day now, she will talk quicker than most (maybe at the same time Jackson does at the rate we are going with him!) Anyway, she is pretty unsensitive to noises that most babies I figure would be. She can entertain herself too...Jackson has had a harder time learning that since I was at his beck and call always. She doesn't like her binky as much as Jackson at all, and she doesn't need (or atleast doesnt' like) to sleep near as much as I thought babies did....(really just in comparison to Jackson).Creighton does not like to cuddle...but rather likes to face the world--even in how you hold her, she had to be held out, not cuddly like Jackson was.
Jackson is always in motion and hardly ever sits still...UNLESS he wants to cuddle and then he is as sweet as can be and will kiss and cuddle and hug and it is SO sweet...until he gets bored or distracted and then it is 100 miles an hour again! He is pretty hilarious. He does this thing where we ask him to "show us your muscles" and he brings his arms to his chest and sqeezes his fists and makes a super cute face like he is flexing and it is priceless. Then he has started doing "home alone" when Maculey screams with his hands on his face and Jackson does that too. He is liking to be the center of attention most of the time, but then here recently he'll pretend he is shy and that is pretty funny too....he is NOT shy by any means.

Creighton has the cutest dimples known to man and I adore her smile. She is generally happy unless she is hurting and then watch out...she'll let you know it! She can scream with the best of them.

I love both of my kids...I love their details, I love their differences. I love them! I will try to post a few pics on here, but for some reason sometimes they haven't been downloading on here. But I do have a few new ones that are pretty sweet.

Hearing test

Today I took Jackson to the hearing doctor because his pediatrician said he needed to go because he is delayed in his speech. He only says 5 words (ma-ma or mom, da-da, uh-oh, no and hot)...and he is suppose to be able to say 200 by the time he turns 2. That is in less than 4 months...a lot can happen between now and then, but lets be real honest...he isn't close. So even though I thought he could hear just fine, I took him. Well, she said because he had a cold it could be a "bad" test but otherwise he didn't do so well. I don't really know what that means--sounds like a referral to another doctor or something. I think we find out Wednesday what his pediatrician decides she thinks he needs. Kinda scary...

We went up to the school today though because there was book fair. We got like 5 books or so and I am excited about them. Some of them are pretty cool.

Creighton slept last night for the first time in so long! :) She slept from 11:30-7:30....yeah...too bad Jeff woke me up at 3 and then at 5 she was coughing so I went in to sleep in her room til 7:30 when she woke up....I wish I would have slept the whole time, but I got like 2 2 hour naps in...oh well.

I am thankful for the sunshine...I love the fact that spring follows winter!

No sleep for the weary and tired mom

All I wanted to do was sleep today because Creighton had a horrible night...and she would NOT sleep....I got her to go to sleep for only 20 minutes all morning long after trying without ceasing until the school called and told me I had to come get Jackson early (it was 12:45) because he was puking everywhere...ugh! I wish he hadn't gotten sick for a million reasons, but just as they called, she had fallen asleep...so I had to wake ehr up to get her in her seat and and in the car. It was like a nightmare came true or something. Every part of me hurts from not sleeping all week and last night was just miserable, taking 45 minute naps every 2 hours or so.
Jeff came home and tried to get me a nap for about an hour and of course I just laid there without ever falling asleep (somehow I don't know how) and now he has to go to work till 10 tonight and so I am alone with 2 sick kids and I wish more than anything I wasn't....
I am sorry I am complaining so much.
I am thankful for blogging--I am stealing Maria's thankful today. It is one of hte only things that keeps me sane on days like today. It is like theraputic for me to write it all out...I am just sorry that all of you have to read it when it is like the above post!
Hope you are allhaving a good day.

Laundry

well a few days ago or maybe longer I posted that I had 9-10 loads of laundry to do and well, I just finished them (well the last load is in the dryer)...oh man, what a relief....I felt such a sense of accomplishment last night...because I finished my bible study homework for the week, jeff cleaned the kitchen, i folded umpteen loads of laundry adn put it all away and had both kids to sleep...and i got to sleep before midnight. :) i figured creighton would wake up just as soon as i fell asleeep because she's been doing the midnight-midnight 30 thing lately, but she slept till 2...so i got about 2 hours of sleep which was more than i was expecting. then she didn't get up again till 5:30 I think...so she's doing a bit better.

i love my kids! i had fun with them last night. jeff was gone and things went really smoothly and they played together and seemed to enjoy my and each others' company...it was great. jeff came home and asked if we'd had a party or had someone over...i said no....he said well it looked like we had fun, and i said well that's because we did! it was good!

still pretty dang tired but hanging in there. God is good to me

I didn't get to go to bible study because Jeff and I felt it'd be best to stay home for the rest of the week with Creighton because that is what the doctor suggested and then see how we are all doing on sunday...i can't take creighton to the nursery for a while because she might infect other babies and Lord know we dont want that. it is spreading so easily right now there are so many babies that are sick. it makes me sad!

i love that jackson is so sweet to creighton. last night they were both sitting on his little couch (THomas the Train) and they were so cute! he'd lean over and kiss her and then put his arm around her....priceless.

i am thankful for my sweet babies!

RSV and Day Spa

Well, it is official. I took Creighton in to see the doctor and she has RSV and an ear infection...ugh! Thankful I already have Jackson's nebulizer from when he had RSV and so we dont' have to purchase another one of those...(i am still paying it off until April). Anyway, I feel sad for her. I hate it that she is sick and there isn't anything really I can do for her. The doctor told me I have to give her this medicine every 4 hours even through the night for her breathing, which she is up every 3 (or less) right now and thus, I will get presumably no sleep for the next week. I am so tired already I think that the thought of it is making my head hurt even more than it already does. This too shall pass, right?!

I have something wonderful to look forward to though. March 8th! I can't wait for the day to come. Jeff said that in his world and in the corporate world you get bonuses and raises when you do a good job and he stated that I have beena really great mommy and since I don't get this monetary rewards that the world offers he was going to give me a day at the spa. I don't even know where it is or what I am getting, but I am there for 5 hours and then that night he has a hotel room for JUST ME! I am so thoroughly excited and thrilled that the anticipation and excitement of it all is all that is keeping me going right now. I cannot wait....a WHOLE day to myself relaxing and then the best part is I get to sleep afterwards for as long as I want with no interruptions, except maybe to pump or something. I am thrilled! He definitely is the greatest husband around...not just for this, but certainly this helps!

I am thankful for my husband, duh!

thankful

i forgot to post a thankful for today and yesterday

i am thankful for jeff who did the dishes and helped out alot yesterday and today

i am thankful that i got to opportunity to do some of my bible study and that the Lord continues to teach me new things through Daniel.

sick

well I thought Jax was better and it was just a fluke timing or something because he didn't run a fever all day yesterday and so this morning I sent him to church with Jeff because I was exhausted and Jeff said itwould be fine for him to be in the nursery or with him. Well they came and got him apparently saying he wasn't feeling well and felt warm. Jeff never took his temp but he probably had a lowgrade again.
Creighton had a horrible night...and therefore I am so tired I can barely hold my eyes open and it feels like I have a horrible headache adn stomach ache all the time. She was up constantly and woke Jackson up too and so at one point I had to put her down and pray she'd somewhat fall asleep and/or atleast be quiet and go get him and rock him back to sleep, put him down and then go back and finish getting her nursed and to sleep...Jeff slept through it all and that was the 4th or more time I had been up from 11-6! Then again this morning just a mere hour and a half after that mayheim Jeff had gotten up to get in the shower for chruch and it happened again...they were both up at the same time crying...her to be fed or comforted and him to get out of his crib....I was thankful at that point he was willing to take Jackson off my hands for a few hours....but Creighton didn't let me rest unfortunately...but atleast I didn't have to be up and active with her like I would have been with Jax.
JEff is trying to give her a bottle and get her back down now but she's screaming....I am pumping but I don't know why she ate continually roughly for 12 hours...my body is worn out.

Sick kids part II

Oh my...I have wanted to blog for the past few days but it is difficult with one hand and deemed un-worth-it....
Creighton has been sick since Wednesday and is only getting worse. I went by the doctors office yesterday and they said she has RSV most likely but that for now I should just monitor her and treat her symptoms and only bring her in if she gets worse because there isn't much they can do for her unless she is "bad." Lord I pray that she does'nt get worse or get pnemonia like Jackson did when he had RSV. I hate winter and all that it entails....my kids get sick every winter...

Jackson is now running a low grade fever and is as whiney as ever. I hate that for us all...I don't like it when they don't feel well, for them, but my goodness his whiney state is about to drive me mad...and it doesn't help that he refuses to talk...that would help so much. All the kid wants to eat is Lucky Charms andof course all he eats is the marshmellows....its ridiculous.

I did get a chance for a break yesterday adn I went to Walmart because we were out of everything and the 2 things we did have were recalled...yes, both of my peanut butters were recalled...um....hello....there isn't any other peanut butters you can even try to buy right now either, they took them ALL off the shelf....if only GV and Peter Pan were recalled then why is there NO other pb on the shelf....good gracious....that is a staple in some peoples worlds...it isn't in mine and so I don't know why I just went on a rampage about it...jeff doesn't like it, jackson and creighton can't have it till they turn 2, and I can't eat it because it makes Creighton really fussy and gassy...so who really cares...but I did want to buy some for some odd reason and I couldn't....
but back to my trip to walmart....
it was wonderful....peaceful, alone (amongst hundreds of course, but alone, nonetheless) and it was fabulous...never knew I could enjoy being in walmart as much as I did yesterdya. It was a muchneeded break. Jeff had the kids and they slept for part of the time i was gone which was good....because they are a handful and then some right now when they are awake simultaneously.

anyway, Creighton is puking every time i feed her which is becoming annoying and I hope she gets better soon. I have changed outfits so many times for the both of us and it is so hard to do laundry with one hand...she will NOT let me put her down unless by rare chance I get her to sleep and then I have a few sacred minutes...which now is one of them and so I should go do some laundry....adios

A busy but good 2 days

I had every intention of blogging and really, I had so much to say and now that I finally got around to it, I can't remember much of it. Anyway, I made it...and if I do say so myself, with flying colors. I enjoyed myself and proved to myself that I can do it (not alone, because God was definitely with me). Jeff decided back and forth about whether or not he was coming home tonight or tomorrow and I believe I just heard the garage door...so apparently he decided he missed us too much to stay :). Classes were over but he was going to stay to write some of his papers in the "peace and quiet."

While he was gone, we made it to Bible Study on time...as in I was there like almost 10 minutes before they started the video...yeah me! Really the only reason was Jackson has started to wake up earlier this week...which kinda stinks because I am the opposite of a morning person in all aspects...but it helps when you have somewhere to be. I enjoyed bible study and truly knew that the Lord had a word for me...it was Beth Moore and she was talking about "when the 'strong one' isn't there to lean on and follow you have to step up yourself and be the strong one. " It was really in reference in the book of Daniel when Shadrach, Meshach and Abednego were confronted by King Nebechadnezzer about worshipping the idol without the leadership of their 'strong one' Daniel....when the opportunity to was set up they had to step up...and that was what I feel the Lord was saying to me even though it wasn't as crazy or spiritual maybe as in Daniel...but that I had to step up...and I did. There is a sign that I saw a few months ago and I wanted to get it for myself for times such as this week. It stated "Put on your big girl panties and get over it!"....

Anyway, we played at the park after bible study because the Lord blessed us with a beautiful day!! The weather finally was warm enough to be outside and so we did that! After naptime, we went on a walk....I put Creighton in the carrier and buckled Jackson in the wagon and we went to the park in our neighborhood and we had fun. Jackson of course was my little dare devil the whole time....he scared me....and for the first time I think as his mommy I had this crazy sense of fright because there were all these bigger (like 8-10 years) boys that he ran over to, far from me and they surrounded him and looked like thye were going to jump him...its so scary to trust him to the world...big lesson...well not trust him to the world, but rather while we are in it I have to trust the Lord to watch over him. I sure hope he empowered his best, mightiest, strongest, fastest and most awesome guardian angel to be Jackson's....he needs it!

We had dinner at the Howzes and that was fun...albeit kinda crazy with 4 little ones running around and trying to eat together...well 3 anda baby. I am so blessed by my friendship with Kara and her family. Jackson adores Aidan and Emma and actually he has learned to say Aidan's name (I think). One of the few on the list for him and how cute is it that she is one of them! Anyway, God truly has blessed me with crossing our paths...

That was all yesterday....today Jackson (again) got up earlier than normal...which I didn't care for, but it was fine. We had plenty of time to get him ready and AGAIN we were on time to something...and rare oddity in the life of Courtney Berg. I do though enjoy being on time to things...it was a great sense of accomplishment...hahah...that is funny. Anyway, he had a GREAT day at school! Yeah yeah yeah! No biting, good nap, ate all his food....yeah Jax! While he was at school I had lunch with a friend of mine and then she watched Creighton while I went to get my second Christmas massage. Samantha Lin is fabulous...it was wonderful and then some! One whole hour, kidless and in heaven on earth relaxing and warm. Oh it was good.

Then after I picked up Jackson we went to the park again with Kara and the kids because it was a GORGEOUS day out again....I am very very thankful for the weather! We had a good time adn came home and Jackson took a nap...
Creighton had sorta a rough day and threw up like 2 times and had snot just pouring out her poor nose...I think the whole US has colds right now....or worse. Every baby in town seems to be sick. Its awful.

My parents came up to have dinner with us tonight so that was good! Free dinner and help with the kids for a few hours. They helped me get Jackson down...really they just stayed till I got him down...and then they left. It was fine and I am gald they came up! It was nice to see them.

And then I got Rae down and hopefully she'll sleep well again tonight..last night she slept from 9:30-5:40....:)happy mom...but I didn't sleep hardly at all, but now that Jeff is back hopefully I can rest...I was worried all night because I kept hearing noises...but now he's the man home and I don't have to worry so much...

He has to work all day tomorrow on school again...but I am okay with that....I am in a great mood and feeling great too! Tired, much! But, I am good....and I am confident in myself and in my God!

I am thankful that Jeff got home safely adn that I made it sanely..and for the weather...and for Jackson who is getting so big and old!

by the way, those boys didn't "jump" Jackson they were nice to him....praise the Lord
another by the way, thank you to all of you who encouraged me and prayed for me this week...it was heard and answered and much appreciated!

welcome to the blog world darci!

rambling on and on

Jeff left tonight for school this week. I am very sad. I haven't really figured out why I have this horrid sense of "I can't do it without help," but I do. I have been thinking about it all day and really often lately why I believe that I am helpless and a failure at this mommy thing. I am a good mom! I know that I am...I can say it, and I am pretty sure I believe it...but deep down in my heart of hearts, I am so fearful of failing at it...and this is pretty big to fail at. I feel that my perfectionism type A personality is strangling me in this. I know that I can do this on my own if I had/have to, but I don't want to and so every time Jeff leaves or whatever I freak out. I don't even think this blog is making any sense, because my thoughts are so jumbled this way and that...I feel as if I am trying to convince myself that I am a good mom so that I will be "okay" during this time. ughghh....nevermind....I am sounding ridiculious now....I think I have just allowed Satan to have a foothold here in my life and convince me that I am less than and inferior and helpless and I need to give that to God I know. It is scary though....

Anyway, those are my crazy thoughts that are all consuming at the moment, but I will blog for a few seconds more ( I am tired and finally got Rae to sleep) but I wanted to blog.

Jeff and I were suppose to go to small group last night and we ended up not but we had sucha great excuse...our small group is discussing a book on marriage and I wanted to go because we haven't been yet and they are on like chapter 7 or something. I haven't read one word of the book and quite frankly I don't even know the title or where the book even is...but anyway, back to my point..we finally got to talk deeply about our marriage and really spend some quality time together that hasn't happened is SO long. It was really a sweet adn special time for us and I am so thankful (yesterdays thankful) for that time with him and the memories we made together and the deposits we made in the bank account of our marriage.

Jackson and Creighton are doing well and thankfully are feeling much better. My motherinlaw (jeff's step mom ) was suppose to come help me this week while JEff was gone but she has bronchitis ( i am so bummed) and so now she can't come. But on the good end of things, Jeff thinks that class is cancelled on the last day and so he'll be home a day early...great news there!

I just talked to jeff and he made it to Missouri fine! Iam thankful for his safety and his dedication to get this Masters done! He is such a great guy!

Tomorrow is bible study and I missed last week but I am excited to go this week! I actually am caught up on ALL of my homework too! thank you to those who prayed (and please continue)

I am thankful for my sweet babies....they make me laugh, cry, smile, and every emotion...they keep me going and without them I am not myself...

Sleepy----and gonna get some

Jeff and I went to dinner ALONE tonight and it was nice. I took the kids down to my moms this afternoon because she claimed she was having withdrawls...how ever thankful I am for withdrawls :). It was time for me to have a break I believe....I am exhausted. I am pumping and going to bed soon. But it was nice to have the car to myself on the way home and then meet Jeff for dinner and then we played games when we got home. Tomorrow is church and then I have the whole afternoon to myself til small groups begin and I am looking forward to my time alone believe you me! I have a million things I need to do though and I don't know what I want to do with my FREEDOM...I don't want to waste it, but yet I dont want to really spend it cleaning and running errands either, but I do need to get things done....My house has no ketchup! NO KETCHUP...that is like the cardinal sin in the Little Household and Jeff eats ketchup on everything...so therefore...I think I MUST run to walmart---the ever dreaded trip...but it will be alone so that will be fun---well more fun than toting one or two kids anyway. I am SO tired...It is great that I will sleep tonight...I am just so excited I can barely stand it....Did I mention I am tired and that I am getting sleep all through the WHOLE night....PRAISE GOD!
I declare it a good day!
Also, I went to Target with my mom and we took Rae with us (Creighton) and she was SOOOO good the whole time. She smiled at all the googlers that stopped to talk to her and smile at her....she talked and laughed and smiled and did not cry the whole time (well until the very very end on the way home...she was hungry). I was so proud of her. I bought her some cute things at Target too...and some new big binkies and some breastpump bags....the good kind. I also got Jackson some really cute muffin holders that have feet on them...and they are that cool rubber stuff that goes directly in the oven...I think he'll like them.
I am off to bed....if I could only explain the great excitement....I promise my words are not conveying it enough.....
I do love my kids though dearly dearly dearly adn I do miss them and their sweetness..but I am so thankful for my parents living nearby to take them for the night!