Tuesday, November 10, 2009

Today

I wrote this yesterday...
Today was a hard day in our journey of adoption.  It was like getting hit by a freight train with no brakes after such a SWEET yesterday.  But, I will still praise the Lord. 

The birthfather needs and wants more information and wants to be a larger part of the process than we had orginally anticipated.  I am choosing to believe that in the end this will be a good thing. I want Charleigh to know who he is, and that is his heart's desire too.  We love open adoption and ALL that it holds...including hiccups...or whatever you want to call today. 

I do believe that the power of prayer was manifested in its full force today.  I could feel it. I could almost audibly hear the petitions on our behalf.  I know that nothing has changed in circumstance, but definitely in my heart. I have a peace that does transcend understanding.  I am claiming promises, claiming scripture, claiming truth.  God has a huge plan for this little girl, and one day, she will have an incredible story to tell. 

She has been loved by so many in the process and will continue to be, I know this.  No matter the outcome.  My friend Marci reminded me that He cares for her more than I (or anyone else) ever could. I will celebrate the life that she has been given, and I will celebrate each moment that she is with us.  We have from the beginning wanted what was VERY best for her, and I know that will prevail.

Thank you all for your prayers.  Please continue them as this is far from being finalized in any direction.

3 comments:

Becky said...

I'm so sorry. I cannot imagine how yesterday was for your family (or today, either, for that matter)! I'm glad you felt God's presence so mightily!! I will continue to pray for that and for peace and comfort and faith and trust and all the other things you need right now! Marci's so right in what she said. And the other thing I always remember in tough times is that God also knows all of these things we are going through before they happen and the purpose for them. Doesn't make it easier, doesn't make the heart break any less, but He is in control when we feel totally out of control. He knows every move that will take place and how He will use it in our lives. In a small way, it is a comfort! We love you!!!

Lori said...

As far as things in common go, I've been married 6 days longer than you. (According to your ticker, anyway.)

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