Monday, December 31, 2007
But that hasn't been the case throughout most of 2007. It seemed that hindsight it ALL ended really well, but with each blessing came a lot of pain/difficulty:
*We had a sweet baby girl (blessed beyond measure in having a healthy baby) but within the month of her birth I was suffering with severe postpartum depression. This illness lingered within me (and my everything) for so long--making for a long and hard road--which is probably why there is even a list below...everything is completely life altering and hard when you are struggling with PPD
*Jeff finished his Master's (yeah !!!) but the getting through it and finishing it was so hard on all of us.
*Adjusting to 2 kids was incredibly difficult for me. Adding a second was so much harder than I ever thought possible. But now that they are both older (Creighton is not a baby and Jackson is talking) things are getting much much better.
*My walk with the Lord is flourishing now (Praise the Lord!), however, to get to this point, lets just say I was definitely at the depths of the pits below rock bottom! I am not proud of where I was, the state I was in, the way I acted/talked/thought, but I am VERY excited about where I am now.
*Things are really good at Grace (awesome!) but we have been through much to get to this point! (enough said on a public blog)
*Having nearly all of my friends leave Bartlesville (or talk of it) was incredibly difficult for me, but now I have double the love, as I keep in touch with them, and have added new ones and am cultivating and cherishing these!
*Some really difficult conversations and situations that have ultimately led to lots of soul searching and refining me---this is so good although pruning is incredibly difficult and hard on the pride :)
I am sure the list could go on...but it is just good to look back and be able to see that although things were really difficult, I can now see the "why" or the "reason" or at least the silver lining in them. I am just glad to be able to look forward to new....a new year, a new outlook. I am not as naive as I sound in thinking that 2008 will be "hunky-dory" and easy for me at all, but I am just in a good place right now. I am excited to see where the Lord leads and what He has in store for us. God is so good. So GOOD.
Happy New Year Y'all!
Saturday, December 29, 2007
Wednesday, December 19, 2007
She is awake now and doing okay (after lots of crazy tests, a pumped stomach, and other meds to reverse the affects, etc). That is a miracle and a blessing. I hope she sees it as such.
My uncle (my mom and my aunt lajuans brother) has cancer and isn't doing well at all. His wife also has cancer and is doing a little bit better (but not feeling well). They both started another round of chemo on Monday. They are both fighting for life, while someone doesn't want theirs.
It is such a raw thing for me. I have been where my aunt was...different circumstances, but the same hopeless feeling. I know how selfish it seems from this side of it, but from there, there is just no thinking like that. I want to love on her, but I am so far away and the relationship isn't there to really do that. It is so hard. I also knwo what it feels like to be on this side of that kind of hurt and it hurts. Questions like "how can she be so selfish" come to mind quickly. But like I said, I am no one to judge that decision or emotion...I can't.
My family is hurting. Lots of them. My aunt has a husband, 3 siblings, a mother, 3 daughters (2 son-in-laws) and 5 grandchildren...not to mention all of us others in her life (and affected by it). There are lots of raw emotions raging and hiding. Please pray for all of us. Thank the good Lord she was unsuccessful. The ramifications of it all would be endless if she would have been...The whole family just needs a load of prayer and lots of miracles.
Monday, December 17, 2007
Jeff is in the middle of his 5th year as the Director of Youth Ministry and still loves it. We are all extremely excited about the up-and-coming opportunity this February for Jeff to be ordained as a minister, and will take the title as Youth Pastor. There have been many changes in the youth group this year, from hiring new staff, to a complete new vision for Wednesday nights, and things are going really well! His “sweet sixteen” guys that he led for the last four years graduated in May and that was an adjustment for him! It was really neat to watch them grow so much under his discipleship. Jeff completed his Masters in Youth Ministry in May!! So now, when Jeff isn’t working or hanging out with family, he is definitely in front on the TV watching a movie or playing the Wii.
Jackson will be exactly 2 ½ on Christmas Eve. He is all boy, all the time! Although he is really sweet (and dang cute)! His vocabulary has just exploded over the last few months and he is talking all the time. His motor skills continue to impress me, as he can do things I never expected him to be able to do (yet), such as shoot at a target (on the Wii) and hit it consistently all by himself. He really likes playing outside, running, jumping, and climbing. One of his most favorite things is to swing! He’d do it for hours if someone would push him that long! He loves to watch Bob and Larry (VeggieTales) and loves Curious George too! He absolutely loves music: dancing, guitars, drums, just anything. This brings priceless smiles and laughter without fail. His laughter is contagious and he loves to laugh and play with Creighton. They are so fun to watch together and LOVE being with one another!
Creighton turned one this November and is now 13 months. She is such a joy! Her eyes dance and she smiles with big dimples and lots of teeth showing, a lot. Speaking of teeth, she didn’t have any until she was 11 ½ months old and now she has 6. So its been a big teething session for her lately. She is still nursing and we both are really enjoying that time together. She was walking early and is now pretty much keeping up with Jackson all the time. They love to climb and play together outside. She is full of energy and lots of laughter herself. She doesn’t say many words yet, but she says “dada” and “mama” all the time. She gives great kisses, which is one of her favorite things to do. She plays with her baby dolls and tries to steal whatever Jackson is playing with. She LOVES to dance. Usually there doesn’t even need to be music playing and she’s dancing, but if there is music: watch out! J
Courtney loves being a wife and a mommy. My family is the joy of my heart! This fall I coached the freshmen team at BHS and it went well. It was a good thing for me to ease back into something small (and something I love). I was able to build some neat relationships with my girls, which didn’t end with the season, and that is the greatest things of it all. I am leading a small group of 11th grade girls for Nikao and I love them! It has been so good to get back into that. My heart is there for sure and I love the relationships I am able to make and build upon within that setting!
We hope that all of you have had a great year. Have a blessed 2008 and Merry Christmas!!
More updates later...
Wednesday, December 12, 2007
Tuesday, December 11, 2007
We all slept really well! I think we were all so tired, finally warm, and I wasn't worried for once about them, that we all slept till 9:45! Creighton finally slept through the night for me! Jackson came and got in our bed at 7, but went right back to sleep! IT was fantastic!!!! However, Jeff just assumed the roads would be bad, but they weren't this morning and everyone was at the office and he'd missed his 9am meeting...oh well. He went in for about an hour and then came hom and we've had youth over ever since. Creighton and I went to Walmart--um...seriously...you'd think it was Black Friday or something....there were a million people there and the lines were SO long. If I didn't desperately need bread and diapers, I would have ran out the other door and never turned back, but luckily I remembered a little "trick of the trade" and checked out in the garden area and was out in no time at all (there were only like 3 people in line down there). I am hoping to get out and go to the YMCA tonight to workout and let the kids get some social interaction with other kids (just in case they dont' have school tomorrow). My parents have been without power for since Sunday night and they aren't expecting it to get back on till next week becasue there are so many outages all over Tulsa and the surrounding areas. I am so thankful that ours is on! I pray it remains on throughout the day and night (and forever, I guess !) :)
Wednesday, December 5, 2007
here is Jeff when he was called up on stage to do sound FX for Universal Studios. I just love the picture because I captured his REAL smile (too bad his eyes are shut though)...still had to post it
here is the picture of Jeff and I near the only water (ocean) that we saw on the trip and this was unexpected as we were detoured way off our track on the way to the airport (suppose to go to Burbank and ended up in Santa Monica on the pier off of Santa Monica Blvd.) But it was a good thing! I loved the view!
Here is Curious George...I saw him and HAD to take a picture with him for Jackson! And someone pointed out to me that Jackson looks like him...I agree...but I think it just the nose (not to mention the fact that Jackson is VERY curious like CG too though ;))
Here we are with Shrek...as if you didn't know....
Monday, December 3, 2007
We leave tomorrow which I am ready to see my babies (I miss them so much) but being away has been nice and coming back to reality is never as easy as it feels it might ought to be, and I don't know the next time I will see the Colaws either...:(
Two of my Bville friends had babies while we've been gone and I am excited to see them though too. Congrats Christy and Melissa! (and Kara's was right before we left, so congrats to you too!).
I'll post more when I get home, but probably not till Tuesday or Wednesday since we don't get in till Tuesday to Bville and it will be crazy to catch up...but I have a few pics of Jeff and I and our adventures at Universal Studios. We had such a great time!
I am so thankful for Becky and Brent and the vision that they have and the obedience that they have had to God in following the calling to plant this church...its so very exciting to see it all happening!