Friday, October 31, 2008
We also have a table/chair set, bikes, large toys, movies, books. Lots of bedding stuff (twin, queen, and king)
Lots and LOTS of CLOTHING from newborn (not as much) to 4T (a ton of 12m-2T girl) (2T and 3T boy) and Maternity clothes.
It is Friday/Saturday 8a-1p. If you are in the Bartlesville area (or feel like driving) please stop by! If you don't know where I live, please leave a comment with a way to contact you and I will give you the exact address/directions! Thanks!
Now, I am exhausted and we aren't really READY for people yet! AHHHHH
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
Today on my way to lunch I passed a homeless guy with a sign that read "Vote Obama, I need the money." I laughed.
Once in the restaurant I noticed that my server had on a "Obama 08" tie. I chuckled to myself, thinking "Interesting that the last two people I've seen were advertising for Obama."
When the bill came I decided not to tip the server and explained to him that I was exploring the Obama 'redistribution of wealth' concept. He stood there in disbelief while I told him that I was going to redistribute his tip to someone who I deemed more in need -- the homeless guy outside. The server angrily stormed from my sight.
I went outside, gave the homeless guy $5 and told him to thank the server inside, saying "I've decided you could use the money more." The homeless guy was grateful.
At the end of my rather unscientific redistribution experiment I realized the homeless guy was grateful for the money he did not earn, but the waiter was pretty angry that I gave away the money he did earn, even though the actual recipient needed the money more. I guess redistribution of wealth is an easier thing to swallow in concept than in practical application.
His music is relaxing and his voice is smooth. This is just a demo cut of this song, but I really really like a lot of his other songs (lyrically and musically probably even more than this one) even though this one will always be my favorite! :)
Congrats Taylor and thanks! You're great!
okay, well i can't figure out how to put it on here yet but i will and i'll try soon:)
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
One of the biggest and most long-lasting "change" to expect if Barack Obama becomes President of the United States is in the kinds of federal judges he appoints. These include Supreme Court justices, as well as other federal justices all across the country, all of whom will have lifetime tenure.
Senator Obama has stated very clearly what kinds of Supreme Court justices he wants-- those with "the empathy to understand what it's like to be poor, or African-American, or gay, or disabled, or old."
Like so many things that Obama says, it may sound nice if you don't stop and think-- and chilling if you do stop and think. Do we really want judges who decide cases based on who you are, rather than on the facts and the law?
If the case involves a white man versus a black woman, should the judge decide that case differently than if both litigants are of the same race or sex?
The kind of criteria that Barack Obama promotes could have gotten three young men at Duke University sent to prison for a crime that neither they nor anybody else committed.
Didn't we spend decades in America, and centuries in Western civilization, trying to get away from the idea that who you are determines what your legal rights are?
What kind of judges are we talking about?
A classic example is federal Judge H. Lee Sarokin, who could have bankrupted a small New Jersey town because they decided to stop putting up with belligerent homeless men who kept disrupting their local public library. Judge Sarokin's rulings threatened the town with heavy damage awards, and the town settled the case by paying $150,000 to the leading disrupter of its public library.
After Bill Clinton became president, he elevated Judge Sarokin from the district court to the Circuit Court of Appeals. Would President Barack Obama elevate him-- or others like him-- to the Supreme Court? Judge Sarokin certainly fits Obama's job description for a Supreme Court justice.
A court case should not depend on who you are and who the judge is. We are supposed to be a country with "the rule of law and not of men." Like all human beings, Americans haven't always lived up to our ideals. But Obama is proposing the explicit repudiation of that ideal itself.
That is certainly "change," but is it one that most Americans believe in? Or is it something that we may end up with anyway, just because too many voters cannot be bothered to look beyond rhetoric and style?
We can vote a president out of office at the next election if we don't like him. But we can never vote out the federal judges he appoints in courts across the country, including justices of the Supreme Court.
The kind of judges that Barack Obama wants to appoint can still be siding with criminals or terrorists during the lifetime of your children and grandchildren.
The Constitution of the United States will not mean much if judges carry out Obama's vision of the Constitution as "a living document"-- that is, something that judges should feel free to change by "interpretation" to favor particular individuals, groups or causes.
We have already seen where that leads with the 2005 Kelo Supreme Court decision that allows local politicians to take people's homes or businesses and transfer that property to others. Almost invariably, these are the homes of working class people and small neighborhood businesses that are confiscated under the government's power of eminent domain. And almost invariably they are transferred to developers who will build shopping malls, hotels or other businesses that will bring in more tax revenue.
The Constitution protected private property, precisely in order to prevent such abuses of political power, leaving a small exception when property is taken for "public use," such as the government's building a reservoir or a highway.
But just by expanding "public use" to mean "public purpose"-- which can be anything-- the Supreme Court opened the floodgates.
That's not "a living Constitution." That's a dying Constitution-- and an Obama presidency can kill it off.
Sunday, October 26, 2008
Tonight I just feel awful. I woke up at 2a thinking I was going to be sick. Thankfully I wasn't, but I just feel like I did when I was pregnant with Jackson. NO I AM NOT PREGNANT. But I just haven't felt nausea like this in a long time. It is no fun.
When I went to check on her before I went to bed, she was asleep (VERY SOUNDLY) on her floor next to her bed face in the carpet. I have no idea if she was just there, or if she fell off and just ker-plunked there on the floor and never moved.
I got worried just now though when she woke up screaming. The very last thing in the world I wanted to do was to move... But I went to check anyway, and she was fine. She probably just startled herself or something, because I held her for less than a minute and she was out again.
But now I am FULLY awake, because really I never had gone back to sleep at 2. I was contemplating the entire time who I was going to call to come over in the middle of the night to take care of me/her because I felt so incredibly sick. But now I am feeling better (weird) but can't go to sleep. Wonderful.
I suspect she'll be up at 7 on the dot (or earlier) and I might have to crawl out of bed and pretend to be cheerful! Oh well...missing my hubby. And my boy.
Friday, October 24, 2008
Thursday, October 23, 2008
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
Really, melt my heart. I LOVE it.
He is so sweet to her
Any advice on getting pee out of mattresses?
Monday, October 20, 2008
Creighton is such a champ at going to bed in her big girl bed. She stays in there pretty well for the most part and sleeps really soundly too. She isn't getting up in the middle of the night and my 6:30 little alarm clock is moving back later each day, but now that it's later she isn't wanting to go back to sleep. So we are adjusting our schedule a bit to get up early with her which is NO fun! But that is okay. Hopefully she'll realize to be a Berg, it requires more sleep! :)
I have been getting more rest now too which is fantastic. That is the good news...bad news is my headaches still aren't going away...so we'll have to see about that. But otherwise, it's looking up and we are getting through this and, all in all, it wasn't so much of a hell week, like I had planned/imagined it being.
Oh yeah, and the cabbage leaves, the Tylenol and of course TIME, all helped tremendously...I am not even pumping anymore and the pain is virtually gone...Praise the Good Lord!!
Friday, October 17, 2008
Wednesday, October 15, 2008
Yesterday, the both took really great naps (after it took a little while to fall asleep). After nap, Creighton didn't even ask to nurse! That is a HUGE milestone for her because after nap is usually a really big deal for her. Jeff claims that is the worst time for him always when I am not here and she would wake up. So, I thought that was great.
We played hard for awhile and then she just ran over to me and gave my legs a HUGE hug and then wanted me to hold her. I held her and kissed and she seemed fine with that. I didn't take into consideration that for 2 years I was holding her for about 20 minutes 6-10 times a day. So, I am making a concerted effort to just hold her several times a day. It seems to help her and me too, if I am honest! ;) I am still sad and emotions are high, but we are both doing great...her way more than me, but BOTH of us so much better than I ever anticipated.
I had the opportunity to serve at Apples of Gold last night and so they were with Jeff through the evening and to bedtime. He said she ate like he's never seen her eat before for dinner and was really good at going to bed for him, although she did ask for a bottle. She has been falling asleep in very hilarious ways these days now that she is in her big girl bed. She still likes to turn her light on and off. Usually when we check on her, her light is on and she has things in her bed or is in a random spot in her room. I have a few on camera :)
Here is how we found her last night:
and a close up! (with her light on of course...maybe it was too bright)... we got such a laugh
This was how we found her the other day! She had put a pair of panties on over her PJs and then passed out in our special chair that is now removed from her room! (this was the first night)
Anyway, Jackson still took a while to go to sleep last night for Jeff, but I think till he figures out HOW to fall asleep again with sucking, it will be like this, except for those times where he is so tired he passes out quickly. But really, he is doing well too!
This morning Creighton woke up at 6:30 and wanted to nurse but I told her no and held her and kissed her and told her how much I loved her. She really wanted me to hold her like I did when I nursed her, and so I did. She fell asleep within 20 seconds I think. I savored some time with her and then laid her down. She never made a sound. She got up at 8:30 and I am not sure if she asked to nurse or not. But she has asked a few times today, but I have been able to give her a drink or snack and she's fine. She is eating SO much food these days though it is unreal. I won't be surprised if she gains like 5 pounds before her birthday...when you only weigh 26 pounds, 5 is a lot!
I am doing okay. Emotions are better. I bought some cabbage last night and wished I would have done this earlier in the process. It helps tremendously. I also am taking lots of Tylenol and putting ice packs on when I can. I have found that ice/cold helps more than heat for the time being. I pumped last night and then this morning, even though I was hurting I waited till after lunch to pump again. It feels much better now that I have pumped. I have some leaves on and am going to lay down because I am just feeling exhausted.
Thanks for all of your thoughts and prayers this week. You are all so sweet! I really am doing well and so much (SO MUCH) better than I thought. I haven't taken the OB meds at all and am feeling pretty good on that end. I think I just really am so scared of change, even when I know it will be good for me. I was so worked up over it all, but we are all surviving just fine. I think that each day gets better and easier. Although, I really miss nursing her and sometimes wonder if I quit too soon. Can't go back now. 'Tis bittersweet.
Tuesday, October 14, 2008
Jackson slept through the night and didn't wake up once (at least didn't get up) until 8:30ish. He was fine this morning. Today before nap he said he'd like to be a baby again so he could have his binkies back. I told him they were gone forever and he was pretty sad. He isn't in his bed and his lights are on, but he is playing quietly in his room, so I can handle that... ...well I am fighting him now to stay in his room, and I am not quite okay with that. It's like he physically does not know how to fall asleep without it. I feel so bad for him.
My chest hurts tremendously, as it has now been 32 hours since the last time I nursed her. I have an ice pack I am about to use and also going to take the Tylenol. I haven't taken any of the drugs the OB gave me for my emotional well-being, so that is something I am glad. I still have them for back up in case something goes wrong or my hormones go nuts.
I am pumping when I can't stand it, but I try to only get a little bit out and then stop. So far I have only pumped 3 times. But going from nursing 6 times a day to none cold turkey, well I guess there will be a little time for that.
This morning was so hard in her room. I knew that I could temporarily "fix" both of our problems by just nursing her. My chest was hurting and engorged and my emotions almost got the best of me. I comforted her in other ways and still spent about the same amount of time with her. It was a sweet time and she was so cute. While I was laying beside her she kept reaching over (about every 10 seconds) to make sure I was still there. I removed the big recliner from her room because that was our "special" place every time we'd nurse. I can't hold her like a baby, but I have to keep her up on my shoulder and I have to be careful how I lay with her (because sometimes we'd lay in bed and nurse). Anyway, this morning was heart wrenching and I was very glad to cuddle up next to Jeff and have him hold me till I finally fell back asleep...
I am tired and hurting but am feeling all the more that this was good timing and the right thing! Whew
Monday, October 13, 2008
Creighton did SO much better than I expected today. I picked them up from school and Jeff came with me. (he was a really great husband and came home to spend some time comforting me). Anyway, we talked to both of them about getting rid of binky and stopping nursing. Then we told them that in exchange (trade) for that we could pick out prizes at Walmart.
So that is where we headed. Creighton got a princess thing with crown, shoes, top, skirt, and purse of Cinderella and a Belle phone. Jackson got (much to my dismay) two guns and two swords (his prizes were significantly less expensive than Creighton's and he was being so sweet as to think of Daddy while he was picking out his..."one for me and one for Daddy".
Anyway, as soon as we got home we had to head straight to the YMCA because I had a private volleyball lesson. Then I had class (step) and then I had my 90 Day Fitness Challenge meeting with my team. So we didn't get home till 7:45 and I hadn't even started dinner.
I made dinner and we all ate. I think they ate well and I certainly did...I was starving. Then, we took baths. We were getting ready for bed and I think I read more books tonight in procrastination than ever before just because I was dreading it so much.
I had to tell Creighton no to nursing a lot in Walmart, but then I was away from her all evening really (and 5 hours this morning at school). So I knew since we hadn't nursed ALL day it would be hard for her tonight. She cried a lot. But I stood my ground. I stood outside her door and welled up with tears as she was screaming, but within 6 minutes she was asleep (or at least quiet).
The true test with her will be in the middle of the night. She is also sleeping in her big girl bed and not the crib tonight too....oh man! She so far has been a champ.
Jackson, well that was another story. I figured his would be harder because he is so much attached to it AS he sleeps as opposed to before he sleeps (nursing). So we had lots and lots of getting out of bed and pleading with him to stay in bed. He is procrastinating going to sleep with books and flashlight scavenger hunts (I am sure to see if I missed any binkies...I must say he is one sharp kid and I wouldn't be the least bit surprised if I go in and check on him with a binky I missed somehow). I THINK he is asleep, he is at least in his room for now and hopefully in bed resting.
Before bed we rounded up all the binkies and put them on the counter. One by one he kissed them and waved bye bye to them and put them in the sack (to give to the new babies at the hospital). It was quite the cute little ceremonial goodbye. I wish it had been just that...but oh well. So far, not too bad.
My chest feels like it might explode and reminds me constantly that I am no longer a nursing mother. It makes me sad, but I also know it is good. It is hard, but right.
I think this is teaching me a lot and stretching me at the same time it is my kids! My poor husband has been a trooper so far. I know this is far from water under the bridge, but thank you all for your love, encouragement, support and most importantly prayers. I know you are praying I can feel it. I love that! God is so good to me to bless me with people like all of you! Thank you.
Here is to a restful (fingers crossed) good night's sleep for all! :)
So, we are done. Starting today. With all of it. No more binky. No more breastfeeding.
I prayed all morning from 6am-8am about it. I told Creighton we weren't nursing this morning at 8:30 and then I got them ready for school, dropped them off...
I cried for 2 hours straight. Balled like a baby. As my eyes are welling up with tears as I type. I am scared to death. I am fearful. I am worried. I am tired. I am emotional. I am exhausted. I am just sort of freaking out on all levels.
I went to the doctor and got some meds just in case I have a mental breakdown. I talked to my OBGYN and Creighton's pediatrician. I called my dad (in Canada for 80 cents a minute). Then, I calmed down. At least a little.
I haven't a clue what this week is going to look like. I am very very fearful and anxious. But when I pick up the kids in 20 minutes, I am hoping they won't sense it. Creighton will want to nurse and I of course will probably want to nurse her. Jackson will be okay till tonight when he won't have his binky for the first time IN.HIS.LIFE (over 3 years people!). And then, yeah, Creighton, well, oh Lord, just pray for us all....
My heart is so sad. My emotions are raw. I feel like I need to do this but at the same time I am not sure I am ready and I don't think Creighton will ever be ready. The doctor (and my mom) assure me she will not be emotionally harmed for life, but something in me isn't so sure. I think that is the hardest part for me. Well, that and letting go of her babyness...my last baby. No more nursing, no more crib, no more baby.
Jeff reminded me that all I've wanted for the last 3 years is for my babies to grow up. Why did I think this? What is wrong with me? For all the times I wanted to rush it all away, and all the times I said this "isn't passing fast enough", it has. It's all passed way too fast. I miss them as babies already.
Oh my goodness what on earth am I doing? The worst thing I know would be to go through with this and then give up midweek. Am I traumatizing them? or just me? I can handle a week or so of hell if they are both okay afterwards.
But I am taking away the very things that comfort them most (at least tangible things). I feel awful. I feel sick. I have no idea if this is right...
Sunday, October 12, 2008
After she left Creighton woke up saying her leg was hurting, but thankfully she went back to sleep by around 1:30. I am not really sure what was wrong with her. She seemed fine this morning.
We got a phone call from another youth about that time though and they (he and Jeff) talked till 2 or later. I was SO tired. I slept soundly from 2-6 and then Jackson came in because he couldn't find his binky. Then at 7 Creighton came in and wanted to nurse, then I took her back to her bed. Then Jackson was up at some time after that but Jeff got up with him and put on a movie I guess (I don't really remember any of that). Then Jeff's alarm went off at 8:30. It was a crazy night/morning, but oh well.
I got up and got showered and dressed and ready for church but when I realized we were going to be a little late to Sunday School, I decided to skip it and pick up the house (even though I was dressed for church). I felt very good about myself this morning! :)
We got to church on time, with both kids dressed and relaxed instead of RUSHED out the door, and they both had breakfast at home instead of in the car or in the classroom. I met up with the two girls that were over last night (for the first time ever) and the three of us went to church. It was a a sweet time because it was just us three getting to be there together. It was also the Sunday for the Lord's Supper and so I got up to go and asked them to join me. We got to do that together and then I prayed and I loved that time. Normally I do that with my family or Jeff and I love that, but today was unique and good. My time with the Lord was sweet during worship and I loved that they got to be there with me. I love these two girls dearly and pray for them a lot.
I don't think it was a coincident that the sermon today was over Personal Discipleship. It is my desire with these girls and has been for a long time, but obviously has to be a two-way thing. We're making progress, but only time will tell. I know seeds have been planted, and I see little sprouts along the way. :)
Most of all, I hope they know I love them and care for them so much! Our pastor's challenge was to pray about who to disciple in 2009. I really hope that their hearts are pricked and ripe and hungry, because I really want to be a part of their spiritual growth and development. Even if it is only one of them...or maybe someone else even.
I suppose another huge desire would be for someone to walk alongside me. Maybe someone else got the message today for me, now that is just as exciting.
Thursday, October 9, 2008
Wednesday, October 8, 2008
** edited to add...I just saw that Jackson is in this picture. if you click on it to make it big you can see Creighton is sitting ON him :)
Sunday, October 5, 2008
We had our guest room bed set in our sun room with a little "mini' room in the corner and then the rest of the entertainment center and games on the other half. Well, now the sun room is our playroom. There are still many decisions and moves that need made, but there is no longer a "bedroom" in there at all. It has been so nice having a majority of the toys in there! Whew...
The big queen bed that was in there is now in Jackson's room as his big boy bed! He loves it. He looks so little in it though. His twin bed was just right, and with it being on the floor (box springs) without a frame, it looked little and right. Now he has a huge queen bed with a headboard and on a frame and it is quite funny! I like his new bed set but don't love it. I'd love it if it weren't too small for the bed. I like comforters that are over sized so they completely cover the bed. It doesn't help that we don't have a bed skirt for it yet... His room is so grown up now!
Creighton's room now has the twin and box springs on the floor AND her crib in it. (as well as the big lazy boy I nurse her in, a huge armoire, and two bookshelves). So needless to say her room is PACKED to the brim with big items. She was so excited about her big girl bed as we were putting it all together. I must say it does look very big girlish and cute! However, she wants NOTHING to do with sleeping in it. She'll play in it all day long, but when it comes time for sleeping, no way! She's funny.
Up until tonight she was crawling IN her crib, but had never crawled OUT. Tonight that changed. She crawled out and opened the door. She was VERY proud of herself. So she might be sleeping in that big bed before she knows it! The funny thing is now we moved her crib against the wall with the light switch on it. She LOVES turning lights on and off, but because she is so small, she rarely gets to do this. Now that she can reach it from her crib, that is THE FIRST thing she does as soon as she wakes up. It is nice because she doesn't wake up crabby anymore. She doesn't even really cry, she just turns on her light and plays in her crib. Which is really really great!!!! However, the downside is, now she turns it on BEFORE she goes to sleep and wants to play instead of sleep. But tonight, after she crawled out I thought it was going to be a long night of getting her to stay in her room, but I told her she'd get a spanking if she came out of her room again. She never came out, but when I went to check on her, she was passed out in her crib with a purse full of books still on her shoulder with the lights ON. Oh man...the days ahead might prove to be crazy, but I bet hilarious at the same time. She keeps us on our toes that is for sure!!!
I am not sure I am ready for her to be 2 in less than a month! That is just crazy...