We knew going into this day that the orphanage would be vastly different than Thagimi. There would be many more kids at this one and this one has been established for 35+ years. It's funded by a church in the US and they do have support financially (at least much more than the other). However, the great emotional needs of this orphanage were just about more than I could handle. These children were more like prison inmates, in the sense that they are in survival of the fittest and hierarchy and institutionalized. Their basic needs of food, water and shelter are being met, but more than that, it's just not there. (in my opinion).
It ranged from organized chaos to mass chaos throughout our time there. This is Mark playing with some of the older boys.
This was the scene when we arrived and came upstairs. There just isn't enough of us to go around. At any given moment you'd have anywhere from 2-10 kids on top of you and touching you. It was great to be able to love on them, but it certainly felt like there was NOT enough time and enough of me. It was heartbreaking. They needed physical touch like nothing I've ever seen.
I didn't want to lay her down, especially because it was loud and seemed unclean and she was big enough to roll out of that type of crib. I am thankful that they take care of their needs, but man, I just wish we could do more to make their lives better, not for a few hours, but for their lifetime. They need forever families...this is NOT how they were intended to live.
It was an exhausting day here at this orphanage both physically and mentally/emotionally. It was a new and different experience than the day before and MUCH processing was required. I don't know that I will ever fully be able to wrap my mind around the lifestyle that these abandoned children know. I am, like I said before, thrilled to have been given the opportunity to love for moments, but it just wasn't enough. They need so much more.