Thursday, March 12, 2009

Remembering Stacie.

Stacie passed away tonight at 7ish. It's been a long time coming. She's been sick for almost a year. She was in and out of consciousness the past week and on heavy morphine to keep her pain levels down. Now the family needs us more than ever...the job is now really just beginning.

I am sad but I don't think I have really wrapped my thoughts and emotions around it all yet. And then also, I hated it that she was just here suffering.

Cancer is not cool. It downright SUCKS. I hate cancer.

Zoe and Neala should not have to be without a mommy to care for them, nor Luke without a wife to love him. It just isn't 'right' no matter how you slice it.

I loved on my kids tonight. I told them how much I loved them and how special they were to me. I told them it was such an honor to be their mommy and that they mean the world to me. I hugged them, held them, kissed them, sang them to sleep. I couldn't imagine leaving them.

Stacie was a fighter. She held on long past when the doctors said she would be able to. She was a believer. Zoe went to school today knowing at some point, most likely today, she'd lose her mommy. She was at peace with her mommy going to heaven. She is a brave girl. She is a strong girl. Stacie left a legacy. She was a good mommy.

Thank you Stacie for fighting the good fight. Thank you for leaving a legacy for your girls. Thank you for uniting our community. For making us remember. For making us grateful in our circumstances. For your story.

Ps. they've asked that if you are inclined to help in any way that you make checks payable to Bank of Oklahoma (memo: Stacie Gudenkauf) in order to help Luke pay bills upon bills that have, are, and will keep coming.


sonja said...

Thank you for posting this Courtney. Stacie's father was the painter for our new house, so I have been praying for them and wanting to be informed about her status. I had no way to do that except through the updates in your blog so I appreciate it.

Hannah E. said...

Oh, I am so sad to hear that this family lost their wife and mother. I'll be praying for those children, that God always puts people in their path who will affirm and continue the legacy their mom was a part of giving to them. What an opportunity for the Body of Christ around them to BE community to them - strong, faithful, supportive community who come alongside a man and his kids to meet various needs they'll surely have through the years. Thank you for telling their story.

Anonymous said...

i didn't know stacie and just recently became familiar with her story. as a mom of 5 and someone who lost a parent at a young age, i know it is one of my biggest fears, the thought of leaving my children too soon. i am praying for this family and all of the ones that loved her so much. i will be watching your blog. i would love to be able to do something, anything for this family.