Okay. I am really not bipolar, although several of my posts might reveal a similar nature :)
I was reading over my post yesterday and today and dwelling on it, trying to decide if I was going to remove it or not. But the fact is it is humbling, which I need. It was/is raw footage of how I was in the moment. It was kind of like a live camera (or journal) as I was in the heat of it all.
But the funny (weird) thing is that my day yesterday wasn't all bad. Not at all actually. We had such a good day until nap time. It was just during nap time that everything exploded...and exponentially grew out of hand on the part of all three tired, hot and very cranky people. Me being the adult, should have responded better...lesson learned.
So I apologize for my previous entry, but I am going to leave it up. I also cringe every time water runs over my right hand because it is a vivid reminder of my lack of self control I had yesterday. As silly as it sounds being of "sound mind" that I actually attacked my door with my fist, and as bad as it stings when I touch it, water hits it, or sometimes just normal things, I almost wish it would scar and stay forever as a reminder of what I can become if I allow myself to lose. Lose sight of the cross. Lose self-control. Lose myself in emotion. Lose. Lose. Lose.
My husband took me on a date last night and that was very fun! It was refreshing. I read some neat passages in the Bible in the old and new Testaments and then I got some good rest last night.
Today has been radically different. Only on my part. Everyone else was the same. But the day was much better. :)
Thank you for all your prayers, encouragement, support, and for not calling DHS on me :)