Wednesday, November 12, 2008

And now I sound like I am three

AHHHHHHHHHHHHH. I had to just get it out.

My son, oh my son...this week has been really hard for us all. He has resisted sleep in all its forms I am so tired of fighting him. I don't know whether to give up, or get tougher. Tonight I think I might explode as he is STILL not asleep and it's been over an hour fight.

Creighton goes to bed SO easily right now and she takes naps. She isn't sleeping as late as I'd like her to in the morning, but I am hoping I may have helped solved the problem with putting up a black out thing in her room.

He is driving me nuts. Spankings, raising my voice, threats, loss of privileges, putting back and putting back and putting back...and STILL nothing...he is still getting out. Still crying. Still calling my name. I can't handle it! I want to scream and beat him, but I know it wouldn't do any good. He is SO tired he can't fall asleep. Without a nap and not getting home till so late just isn't working on Wednesdays.

But I don't know what to do. I can't bail out on my small group and Jeff obviously can't bail out on church...that's his job. And it's my commitment. I do have seniors and am seriously contemplating NOT leading a small group next year for the first time ever. It's just too hard on my kids. I love it though so much.

I hate it that we can't be consistent with our daily lives. Each day is different than the one before and that is hard on me. I am just wiped out and my body aches and hurts ALL over and I am exhausted and grumpy too.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHH. and now I sound like I am three


Becky said...

I'm sorry. It is so hard to keep a consistent schedule in ministry. Have you considered getting a sitter to come to your house on Wednesdays? Is there anyone at church that might volunteer their time? Then the kids would have the consistency of getting into bed on time. And Jackson might do better with someone who is not his mom or dad. I will pray it gets better.

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rachel white said...

praying for you, courtney! i was thinking along the same lines as becky. also, as far as naps (or maybe even when it comes time to go to bed), can you play a cd for him...maybe even some kind of children's story on cd...and, instead of telling him he has to go to sleep, tell him he has to lay on his bed and listen to the story?? it might take the fight out of it.

i know i'll be calling you when my boys get to that stage! hang in there!

Owlhaven said...

Hang in there. 3 months from now it will probably be easier....


Vickie said...

oh how I feel for you!!! We went through this, too, not too long ago if you remember. Keep trying new things until you find what works and if nothing else, at least the consistency of 'what mom and dad says, goes' will eventually pay off.

i'm praying for you... patience, creativity, perseverance, & sleep.

Marci said...

I remember having this problem with Kayla. She has been my strong willed one- - -sounds like you may have one too.

I wish I had some magical advice, but I remember nothing working with Kayla either so I really don't have anything other than TIME!

Children go through seasons of "change" and they act crazy for periods of times. We as parents have NO idea why, we just have to hang in there through it and try not to lose our minds.

I will be praying for you little man!